It’s Strategy otherwise!

In continuation of my previous post ‘Facts about Strategy’, there are other aspects to having a strategy function.

In early days of my career as a Corporate Planning manager, I was busy developing models that were simply quantification of hunches. I was appreciated for rationality used in building the assumptions bottom-up. This to some extent offset my limited understanding of business. I was transforming into an excel wizard but it was strategy otherwise.

With every year of added experience, I oriented myself to be able to ‘execute’ as well. I was getting tired of working endlessly on excel models that actually did not translate into action on ground. The business models that I developed were at best for pitching to prospective investors.

Within few weeks of my joining Denave, the CEO was not having much of planning work for me. I was amongst the top 10 high-paid employees. My first task outside the excel world was to get interest cost reduced. It was a blessing in disguise for me.

Over time my CEO kept on transferring a lot of routine work to me. He sensed value in what I did. There was a phase when no sales proposal went out without I whetting it. I put my head down and looked to make most of this exposure. Later, I even accepted the role of Business Development. Otherwise it was Strategy.

When I moved on with my current company, the plan for me was well laid out. It was an execution-oriented profile but otherwise it was strategy. A road map was agreed on how I will work across all divisions to get improved results. It started with Channel sales and later to lead the finance and accounts function.

Last week I sent out an email, 5th such communication in last 12 years explaining my unavailability for what I am not suppose to do. So while I have been mastering how businesses are run its still strategy otherwise.

I feel the ‘Change’ is needed

I have been at the center of the several long chatting sessions in person either at pubs or in office. Somehow I have been able to read the mind of the person sitting opposite to me and understand what he feels and also frankly express what he feels about me. But then I have two issues:

1. A feeling of regret- Why do I need to be so transparent about all my feelings, thoughts and plans? Had this information advantage not delivered I could have proved any opinion formed or possessed as false.

2. I fail to know what is to be changed within me. I know something has to change but most often it boils down to meet less, speak less an avoid more. Is this the right way to lead and life a life?

I fear when I return to managing life rather than living it.